Choose Your Own Adventure

A lot of questions irritate me. Usually it’s the person behind the question that irritates me but several queries really bug me. Right at the top of the list is “If you could change one decision you made in your life what would it be” or phrased an even more irritating way is “What one decision have you made that if made differently would have impacted your life significantly (btw, i hate the word impact because it reminds me of impacted molars or poo but i couldn't think of a better word, oh, maybe influenced..)” or something like that. The truth of the matter is hindsight is 20-20. If you are 24-30 you prolly read Chose Your Own Adventure novels. I loved these books. Of course I would peek ahead and read all the possible outcomes and flip back until I found the most opportune path. My life doesn’t have the option of flipping backwards from page 121 where I fall into the black-role surrounded by man-eating tigers to page 67 where a mysterious fairy leads me to an enchanted land where I am surrounded by fun and games for all eternity. My point is that every decision I have made, for better or worse, I evaluated the situation and made my choice. Bad choices. Good choices. I can’t complain about what could’ve been or should’ve been because I’m discounting the ability that the me in that stage of development had to make decisions. This doesn’t make me free of regret, but this should make me free of that wistful, “If I had only…”