Antsy

Okay, so I was given a false sense of wellness the day after my first chemo treatment. I came home last Tuesday night, I woke up Wednesday, had some breakfast with lou lou. It was great! Then, “it” kicked in – “it” being the effects of the chemo drugs. I’ve spent the past week trying to maintain some kind of a regular daily schedule which is very difficult to do when you feel sick (although – no vomiting so far!!!), you are fatigued (which is hard to make sense of because you feel like you aren’t doing anything to make you tired), you can’t sleep (but you’re tired and desperately just want to sleep through the entire experience), you take one step forward and then one back day in and out (very frustrating when you just want to get better and move on!).
I will say that yesterday was the best day yet and I made it out of the house to go to yoga. I mostly sat on the mat and focused on my breathing - just being around other people breathing gave me a little more inner strength. My litany of aches and pains (sore lips and teeth, dry skin, a rash on my arms, feeling “antsy”, chest pain, etc.) seemed to be more manageable. I honestly think that if it weren’t for the aching in my mouth, tounge and teeth that I’d feel quite normal. Yes, this is the first thing on my list to discuss with my doctor this week ☺